I've been thinking a lot lately about Devin and Elizabeth. I never know when they will be on my mind more - I mean, I think of them at some point each day, some days more than others. But lately it's been a lot more than usual. Maybe it's the holidays...maybe it's approaching the end of the year, which means January is once again around the corner. I'm not sure.
It is often hard for me to put into words what I feel when I think of them, other than loving and missing them. I've said many times before that I can't imagine what it would be like to have 5 children - yet I know that had Devin and Elizabeth lived we would not have the 3 blessings we have today. I know that we would have been done with 2. So I know that God had a different plan for our family - and I am so thankful.
I was reading a blog that I read almost daily and many of her words in this recent post really hit home - how my heart feels. (Read the post here - In This Wonderful Life - A year and a half) Especially her line "I don't have any ideal scenarios..." That's a good way to describe it - I don't have an ideal scenario in my mind - I wish all 5 of my children were here in this house with me every day - but that was not God's plan. And even for all the pain, I am more grateful than I can say for Devin and Elizabeth, and for my tree precious boys Landon, Austin and Aiden.
Thank you for listening! :)
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