Remembering...

Today, January 15, 2012 marks 8 years since we last held Devin and Elizabeth. 8 years seems like so long ago and others like just yesterday. Sometimes I look back at pictures and it seems like from another lifetime.

Eight years ago, early January, I took one of my few belly pictures from my first pregnancy. We had recently found out we were having a girl, but we weren't sure what the other baby was, but we all suspected a boy! The picture is blurry because it is scanned - but you can still see the happiness.


A few short days after that picture was taken, we welcomed Devin Lee and Elizabeth Ann into this world, much too soon. As I've said many times before, time is an amazing healer. The scar is always there, but gradually the wound is not so raw and you are able to incorporate the loss into your life. But these precious little feet are never forgotten...always missed. Always loved.



We have memories. Some tucked away more than others, some more in the open as our family continues to grow and we try to incorporate them in our lives.



We find peace in knowing Devin and Elizabeth are Safe in the Arms of Jesus...and we will see them again.


This is from a couple of years ago...but this picture gets me every time!

A friend of mine who lots twin boys 12 years ago who has been a great support posted on Facebook about often wondering why it happened. As she described and I, too feel, I wonder why it happened to me and yet when I look at my 3 boys running around (like crazy most times), I know that is why. They are here, they are perfect and their brother and sister allowed them to be. And I have also been able to reach out and help others who have sadly lost babies - and that helps my healing heart, too.

Happy 8th birthday, Devin and Elizabeth! We love you!